news update:
for some reason, when i open the layout page of my blogger dashboard, nothing shows up on my computer. when i open it on dine-o-meter's computer, i have a layout page. how unfair is that?? so all of those knitting tags i have wanted to put on my blog i can now add to my blog... but not from my computer... life is cruel. and i am tired and whiny so i am letting dine-o-meter take over my blog & add stuff to it & play around & widget me out. my blog is getting pimped. so any normal, adult content cannot be blamed on me. it is all her fault. i leave my 2 followers in her hands...
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
A new job and no pics
so i have a new job that a poorly trained monkey can do but that is ok b/c a job is a job, right? i found it interesting how many people in my training class are in my same situation - educated, management experience, good pay - and simply could not find a job. as one man said, misery loves company - especially considering how little we are paid. but they do pay tuition reimbursement and offer medical insurance so that's good. i am selling my car because it is either that or live in it and i really don't know where i would plug in the catgenie and ain't none of us livin' without it!
and i caved. dinomeaner asked me to teach her how to knit socks so she came over to my abode and i got her started and then became nosey (shocking, i know) and was looking in her knitting bag and saw Twilight and thought, hmmm, wonder if this book is anything near the hysteria it has inspired? so i picked it up and started reading... 64 pages later dinomeaner had to rip it out of my hands and run out the door hitting me over the head with her knitting bag to keep me from snatching it back! how rude of her!
since friday, i have finished my own copy of Twilight and New Moon and have started Eclipse. these books are definitely addictive. are they Harry Potter? no. nor are they Faulkner on a bad day, half drunk, and dictating to a monkey - but Faulkner is the platinum standard so when Meyers reads this post, as you know she will, i hope she is not offended. most of the time, i do not like to have to digest a book's poetry. i, like most lazy humans, do not like to think when reading - i like to escape. and that's what this series does and does very, very well - allows you to escape and enjoy an adventure that is interesting and well written without requiring you to have a dictionary next to you or wikipedia pulled up on your laptop. while i think that The Road may be one of the best books i have ever read, i can only read so many of that nature. life is too much most days so i don't need my fiction to be what pushes me over the edge - i want my fiction to distract me and make the edge less attractive and life more interesting. this series has definitely kept me interested!
oh, and i also blog slapped dinomeaner about not posting in like 2 weeks so i had to make myself sit down and write something before she could! ha - i win!!
and i caved. dinomeaner asked me to teach her how to knit socks so she came over to my abode and i got her started and then became nosey (shocking, i know) and was looking in her knitting bag and saw Twilight and thought, hmmm, wonder if this book is anything near the hysteria it has inspired? so i picked it up and started reading... 64 pages later dinomeaner had to rip it out of my hands and run out the door hitting me over the head with her knitting bag to keep me from snatching it back! how rude of her!
since friday, i have finished my own copy of Twilight and New Moon and have started Eclipse. these books are definitely addictive. are they Harry Potter? no. nor are they Faulkner on a bad day, half drunk, and dictating to a monkey - but Faulkner is the platinum standard so when Meyers reads this post, as you know she will, i hope she is not offended. most of the time, i do not like to have to digest a book's poetry. i, like most lazy humans, do not like to think when reading - i like to escape. and that's what this series does and does very, very well - allows you to escape and enjoy an adventure that is interesting and well written without requiring you to have a dictionary next to you or wikipedia pulled up on your laptop. while i think that The Road may be one of the best books i have ever read, i can only read so many of that nature. life is too much most days so i don't need my fiction to be what pushes me over the edge - i want my fiction to distract me and make the edge less attractive and life more interesting. this series has definitely kept me interested!
oh, and i also blog slapped dinomeaner about not posting in like 2 weeks so i had to make myself sit down and write something before she could! ha - i win!!
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
WOW!
Tina Fey does not have to leave the planet and I don't have to move to Canada because Obama won. I think I am still in shock. And I must say that if I am experiencing this level of shock and hope, I truly cannot conceive the level of hope and optimism the African American community must be feeling. I can only image and try to internalize the words of friends like Essie as they express what this victory means to black people specifically and Americans in general. Just wow.
and I would be posting a picture of my cat but I have a new phone and cannot figure out how to send my pics from my phone to my email. I think I might have to cave and read the book tomorrow. Sucks.
But congratulations America - we finally voted out GW and his potential replacement, Palin. Because you might not be willing to say it, but we all know that there was not way McCain was going to live through his entire term. Sorry - but it needed to be said.
and I would be posting a picture of my cat but I have a new phone and cannot figure out how to send my pics from my phone to my email. I think I might have to cave and read the book tomorrow. Sucks.
But congratulations America - we finally voted out GW and his potential replacement, Palin. Because you might not be willing to say it, but we all know that there was not way McCain was going to live through his entire term. Sorry - but it needed to be said.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
how to label your boxes
my friend j told me today it is not that i am handling my current situation (lack of employment and how it came about) well - it just hasn't hit me yet. and damn if the bitch wasn't right because i am no longer handling it well.
i take 2 medications daily (and then some if needed) and had a 3 month supply called in to wal-mart for pick up today because today is my last day with medical insurance (technically, i could COBRA but as i have yet to hit the lottery, i cannot afford to COBRA). turns out, i am not due for refills until 10/3 and 10/11 and my BCBS plan does not offer an early pick up option. so, as all of my well laid plans always end, this one too ended in failure.
and that's when it hit me. i am sitting at the stop light leaving wal-mart and tears are rolling down my face.
when my neighbor/friend/former coworker brought me the box of stuff that was cleaned out of my desk for me (and termed "just some shit" by my former ___ ) i set the box on the floor next to a box containing things from my store. i laughed and said out loud to myself, "look, another box of failure! i think i'll start numbering them!"
at the light at wal-mart, it ceased to be funny. the reality is that i am unemployed in one of the worst job markets in the last 20 years; my 1 remaining 401k is so in the crapper i would not be surprised to receive notice that it has actually rolled back to $0.00; my medical insurance lapses at 12:01 am; no one has called me for an interview; and it will be another week before there is even a possibility of my being notified of whether or not my unemployment was approved (if approved, the state max for me is $275/week before withholding. i know, envy my windfall).
i think the icing on the mental breakdown cake was seeing all of the red & blue school flags on the cars and realizing that this is homecoming weekend and also my 15 year high school reunion weekend. nothing says i have arrived like being unemployed & unable to afford health insurance. i can actually say i have no self esteem left.
i thought the whole point of going to a good high school, getting a college degree, and working hard was so at 34 i would not find myself in this fucking situation? Seriously! remind me again why i am still paying back student loans? again i succeeded in making an investment in nothing - and that was over 10 yrs ago and cannot be blamed on the current economic shit storm. you know you've hit a new low when you're excited about making $70/night waiting tables at the olive garden. that's not even good waitressing money!
tried working hard. was laid off. tried following my dream. declared bankruptcy. tried working hard again. no idea what happened this time. no explanation. nothing.
at least i now know how to subtitle my boxes: Failure #1 - where your dreams died. Failure #2 - just some shit.
i take 2 medications daily (and then some if needed) and had a 3 month supply called in to wal-mart for pick up today because today is my last day with medical insurance (technically, i could COBRA but as i have yet to hit the lottery, i cannot afford to COBRA). turns out, i am not due for refills until 10/3 and 10/11 and my BCBS plan does not offer an early pick up option. so, as all of my well laid plans always end, this one too ended in failure.
and that's when it hit me. i am sitting at the stop light leaving wal-mart and tears are rolling down my face.
when my neighbor/friend/former coworker brought me the box of stuff that was cleaned out of my desk for me (and termed "just some shit" by my former ___ ) i set the box on the floor next to a box containing things from my store. i laughed and said out loud to myself, "look, another box of failure! i think i'll start numbering them!"
at the light at wal-mart, it ceased to be funny. the reality is that i am unemployed in one of the worst job markets in the last 20 years; my 1 remaining 401k is so in the crapper i would not be surprised to receive notice that it has actually rolled back to $0.00; my medical insurance lapses at 12:01 am; no one has called me for an interview; and it will be another week before there is even a possibility of my being notified of whether or not my unemployment was approved (if approved, the state max for me is $275/week before withholding. i know, envy my windfall).
i think the icing on the mental breakdown cake was seeing all of the red & blue school flags on the cars and realizing that this is homecoming weekend and also my 15 year high school reunion weekend. nothing says i have arrived like being unemployed & unable to afford health insurance. i can actually say i have no self esteem left.
i thought the whole point of going to a good high school, getting a college degree, and working hard was so at 34 i would not find myself in this fucking situation? Seriously! remind me again why i am still paying back student loans? again i succeeded in making an investment in nothing - and that was over 10 yrs ago and cannot be blamed on the current economic shit storm. you know you've hit a new low when you're excited about making $70/night waiting tables at the olive garden. that's not even good waitressing money!
tried working hard. was laid off. tried following my dream. declared bankruptcy. tried working hard again. no idea what happened this time. no explanation. nothing.
at least i now know how to subtitle my boxes: Failure #1 - where your dreams died. Failure #2 - just some shit.
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